Ivan dreamed about Maria and he had a smile on his face until his dream was interrupted by a scream. It was no really a scream nearly a loud and noisy cry which woke him up directly. The sound was so shrill and it repeated. At first he was not sure what it exactly could be, it seemed the sound was very near to him. He rubbed the sleep out of his eyes while his other hand searched for the light switch of his lamp. ‘I hope for the Baltics sake – I hope for them that they aren’t the reason why my night’s sleep is interrupted.’ He said to himself with dark aura surrounding him. When he finally found it he saw the reason for this rumor. ________ was right beside him, crying her soul out of her body. Instantly his anger went and he felt guilty for forgetting about her and he mentally slapped himself.
“Oh ____. Come here, shhh. Shhhhh. Everything is fine, shhhh.” He took her into his arms and tried to calm _____ down. But she won’t. After a while he stood up, with her in his arms and walked around in his room. “Please, please calm down. Everything is fine my love. Shhh.. Please _____ daddy needs his sleep.” Ivan asked with a painful face. 3:34 am.
When _____ didn’t stopped crying he decided to sing a lullaby. The one he always heard when he was a little kid.
“Where the dreamy Volga flows
There's a lonely Russian rose
Down upon her knee
Where a baby's brown eyes glisten
Ev'ry night you'll hear her croon
A Russian lullaby.
Just a little plaintive tune
When baby starts to cry
Rock-a-bye my baby
Somewhere there may be
A land that's free for you and me.
And a Russian lullaby.”
He repeated it so often that he nearly fell asleep by his own voice. Singing… the last time Ivan did it, it was when he was a kid and played alone in the woods. He was so tired, tomorrow he had to do all the paperwork like every day. And it wasn’t a little. _________ finally calmed down after one hour of singing but she still sobbed.
“Hnn you really don’t want me to sleep or?”
“Ha… for this night you really earned a minus point little one. Now daddy needs some strong water.” He sighted and opened the door to the floor. Everything was silent and his house seemed even bigger in the darkness. This time he decided to go for himself – he didn’t care that he would interrupt the Baltics rest of the hard day of working; he just wanted to walk a bit. With his daughter in his arm he went to his living room and grabbed a bottle of vodka.
‘Hm she should not see it…’ Russia took a glass out of the shelf and filled it with the transparent liquid. The smell calmed him down and the first gulp worked even better. After drinking two glasses of vodka he put _____ on the couch and covered her with a blanket. Then he went into his kitchen and put a pot, filled it with milk and put it on the herd. He filled the lukewarm milk into a cup and returned to his little daughter. ______ was nearly sleeping but when she saw him her eyes turned wide.
“Papa has something to drink for you, it will help you sleep.” He smiled and sat next to her, put her on his lap and put the cup on her lips. She drank it all and after that she burped and fell asleep.
“Finally, thank you.” He whispered tiredly and then he decided to start with work a bit sooner than normally. … Well at least about 5 hours and still in the midnight.
________ slept next to him in a big armchair covered with a woolen blanket. With the warm milk she would hopefully sleep some more hours.
He worked some more hours and when the sun flooded the room Ivan put down his pen. Some light fell on his child face. She was so beautiful, her hair- his hair, the exact color. He really loved her. Maria’s decision about her wasn’t bad but she could have told him about it… they would have had managed the situation. He sighted.
The alcohol- that early in the morning made even Russia himself tired and he couldn’t concentrate anymore.
“Okay one or two hours I still can sleep here. I mean I already have done some work and the Baltics will get up in two hours, they normally don’t wake me up until 9 o’clock so I will have some time.”
The Baltics started working and prepare breakfast and after that they would normally wake him up.
He took a blanket and put some more wood into the fireplace and lay down on the couch. He immediately fell asleep.
When he woke up ______ name was still asleep. “Hm what should I do with you? You can’t stay here in my office. We need an own room for you.”
‘And I can’t leave her alone; she might be hurt or something.’
Ivan stepped out of the office and met Raivis in the hall.
“Oh g-good m-morning Mr.Russia how was your sleep?”
“Oh to be honest, it was the worst of my life.”
The Baltic went all white.
“Because of her.” Ivan pointed with his hand behind him to the office.
“O-oh w-well, I think it is normal that kids cry during the night b-but we can do it, I m-mean you n-need your sleep.”
With a smile Ivan pat his head. “No although I have so much work to do I should do it, because she is my own kid. But of course you will help me with her or? I mean when she wants to sleep and I am busy you will do it for me or little Raivis?”
“O-of C-c-course!” He nodded.
“Well at least we should go to breakfast right?”
“Oh, oh yes, we already prepared it and I was about to wake you up.”
Ivan nodded and grabbed ______. With her in his arm he went to the dining room where the Baltics already were waiting.
They all eat together but of course the Baltics were silent and tried not to interrupt Russia in something.
_____ sat on a chair next to Toris, because Ivan gave him the order to get her something to eat. Toris was shaking while he tried to feed her, Ivan was all watching him. This made him feel even more unpleasant than normal. Toris mashed up some carrots and potatoes, put them into a bowl and warmed it up. ______ happily ate while the rest of them ate their breakfast.
When Toris was finished with feeding Ivan’s daughter he finally was able to eat his own food. ‘Well it is strange to see Mr.Russia holding a kid and the biggest thing… It is his own…funny. I never thought he would be able to love or take care for someone. Maria really was positive for him and after she disappeared he was sad- at first. Then he became even more angry and aggressive and his mood turned bad. And they had to suffer for his mood. But now the little girl would keep him busy, for sure. And it would be interesting to see him in the role of a father.’
Toris had to hold back a smile and earned some strange views.
Meanwhile Ivan thought about the problems which would cause him into trouble in future. At first he had to manage the problems in his own home. His little sunflower needed an own room and things to play with. ‘I can’t play with her all the day I have my work to do. But I think I should contact my boss to ask him for some free time. Nrg… why me? Now everyone thinks I am a softy. But I stay to her of course; if anyone says something against her they will meet me. Hm the room opposite of mine is just one filled with old books and the room itself is very big, it has a window and the walls can be painted.’
After the breakfast he ordered the Baltics to meet him in the living room.
“Well I have a new order for you. Estonia you will come with me, I need to go to the town. You others have to put the books in the room opposite of mine into another, free one and clean it. We will make her” He pointed to _____, “An own room where she can sleep and play in.
They all nodded.
Later Ivan, his daughter and Estonia were sitting in the big black car. ______ was sleeping in Ivan’s lap while he stroked her hair. It was snowing and the sky was cloudy.
For her room Ivan decided for a light purple and a white bed for children. Nice small lamps, to say it all in all the whole cute design for a room of a little girl. For the ground he chose carpet. He felt a little bit embarrassed that the customers saw him buying children stuff, what they would think about him now.
The feeling was even stranger when he had to take _____ with him into the store, where he bought toys for her - books to learn the alphabet, plush and other toys; Baby food and clothes. When Estonia reminded him with a shaky voice to buy diapers Ivan felt ill. He hadn’t thought about something like … diapers. Ivan must have shown it that Estonia offered to buy them.
________ was tired and yawned and when Ivan reached his car she already was asleep.
While Estonia was paying the bill Ivan rested his head against the cold window. In the last 2 days his whole life changed again since Maria had disappeared. But he loved _______ and the sound of her breathing in his lap.
At home the room was already clean and empty. For the rest of the day Estonia and Latvia managed to paint the room, install the carpet and the furniture. Meanwhile Toris had to take care of ______ and Ivan was working in his office.
He was deep in his work when Toris knocked on the wooden door to his office. When he stepped in he hold a crying _______ in his arms.
“What happened to ______?” Ivan asked sharply.
“Oh she played, ate and slept but now she is crying and won’t stop, really I tried everything but nothing helps.”
“Well leave it to me.”
“Thank you so much Mr.Russia, oh and the room is nearly finished.”
“Alright. You may go now.” Ivan nodded and Toris went off.
Again he walked with her in his arm through his office and tried to calm her down. He decided to make something like a parent-holiday, he was just too stressed and that after one day and a night. Working and a kid together was a bad idea. Sure the Baltics could help but at first she was his kid and he wanted to take care for her, nobody else and second they had other duties to do. Of course there were his two sisters but the younger one was him a bit too creepy for carrying his child and the elder one… no he wanted to do it. As the biggest nation this would be no problem. He thought it was.
The next days and weeks the Baltics worked outside or in the kitchen or they did the laundry. And Ivan had all time only for her. All. Time.
It was one of the most exhausting things in his life. War was nothing. All the day she cried, slept, ate or wanted to play. At first he did it all in his regular clothes but after a while he sweated, because he was moving all the time.
Of course he still had his scarf but she wanted only the scarf to sleep with, no other plush toy. So he was forced to give it to her. It was a really big pain for him to take it off, because he wore it every time and it hid the scars he had around his neck.
And kids, especially small ones don’t have strict eating rules, they eat when they are hungry so Ivan was busy the whole day with her. At night she cried which made Ivan tired, because over the day he had to carry for her. All in all he changed. His mood was bad but only the Baltics got it. He was too tired to hurt them but his tone wasn’t as usual. And he didn’t work, sure he managed it with his boss but Toris noticed it wasn’t good. Russia looked horrible, no more clean uniform, no his eyes were tired with dark eye rings, his t-shirt dirty and his hair tousled. Everywhere in the house laid toys, blankets or other stuff.
Ivan was overwhelmed.
One evening Toris went to the phone.
*peep* *peep* *peep*
“Hello, here is Toris.”
“Oh Hello Toris how are-“
“Please Mrs. I can’t talk, you know we aren’t allowed to but I had to do this. Mr.Russia needs help. He looks awful! Please come over alone!”
“I am not allowed to tell, please just come over.”
“A-alight? I will come alone.”
*peep* *peep* *peep*
Toris sighted, this would cause him into trouble but it was the best for Mr. Russia.